A Complicated Poem

Fighting for the future
But still stuck in the past
Wanting to stand out
But also fit in at last

Feeling more secure
But needing reassurance
Supporting many people
With myself as less important

Wanting peace on earth
But can't get peace of mind
Attacking those who oppose me
But preaching how to be kind

Self righteous like I'm supposed to be
Unlike in past times
It's not cocky and arrogant
It's time I got mines

Finding a path that's focused
Walking down a road I created
The destination's irrelevant
It's the journey, and it can't be faded

But my goals on the way are related
My life has many and I'll make it
Get ready for a fresh start
We're not numbers, we're works of art

Nobody said it's easy
Except our brains who tell us lies
Depression hurts
We hide our silent cries

But never "man up"
It's 20-19
Let's become more human
It's not that extreme

Be the change you want
AND the change you need
But I don't do what I said
So don't listen to me

Only listen to those words
Because they ring true
Let me just learn to love me
And you learn to love you